I rarely get a checkbook error in my favor. A receipt doesn’t appear at the gas station and I forget to write it down. Well, there just went forty dollars I thought we had. Sometimes my husband forgets to tell me about a purchase. Deduct another twenty dollars. This month’s checkbook balancing went differently.
The past few weeks have been filled with trips to the doctor for me along with blood work, an ultrasound of my neck and a cat scan of my chest. I am battling some kind of salivary gland infection that has caused my lymph nodes to swell. I have had two rounds of antibiotics with very little relief. In the midst of that I experienced chest pains which landed me in the ER overnight. No heart attack was detected but I did find out I have a very small aortic aneurysm that will be watched for growth. I have seen the doctor more these past few weeks than I have in the past fifteen years.
In light of all that, I experienced a major meltdown this week. I beat myself up for going to the ER when I could have just waited to see if the pain subsided. How are we going to pay all these bills? I’ve got to find another job. We will never get to visit South Africa again and on and on. I cried to my Mom on the phone and again to my husband when he came home.
Then, I balanced the checkbook. I had made another error but this time it was in my favor. A hundred-dollar error to be exact. No that is not going to pay for our medical bills, but that positive error reminded me of God’s provision. He will take care of me. And friend, He will take care of you. So whether your circumstance is financial, physical or emotional, trust Him to work out His good for you. Cast your anxiety on Him because He cares for you (1 Peter 5:7).
Therefore, do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore, do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. -Matthew 6:31-34
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything, by prayer and supplication, let your request be made known to God. And the peace of God which passes all comprehension will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 4:6
John Piper writes in his blog post “Anxieties to Be Cast Not Carried”:
Casting your anxiety on God means trusting him for handling this specific situation. If you believe that he cares (which is what the promise says), and believe that he is God, then your fears will be lifted.
May our fears be lifted as we entrust ourselves to our faithful God.