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She Battled Cancer While I Battled Faith

10360340_1501645833441586_4189476853990199082_nThis is the post I was hoping to never have to write. Nine months. The time from her cancer diagnosis to her death. Nine months of my dear friend Denise being prodded and poked with needles, nauseated, in pain, throwing up, taking chemo, no appetite, trips to the ER, a flight by helicopter for emergency surgery, more cancer, more chemo, severe acne on her face spreading on her head down her back and chest, more sickness, blood transfusion, fluid building, and finally back to the hospital where God would take her home. Denise knew suffering and we around her a different kind of suffering.

I prayed. I believe God still heals. Sometimes it is indeed supernaturally and sometimes by medical means. Each time I prayed with her, or her husband and I would pray, it just seemed God wasn’t answering.

She battled cancer. I battled faith.

Yet, God did answer prayers:

-He brought her through the emergency surgery that removed the tumor blocking her colon.

-From that, she had overcome Stage IV colon cancer and we also gained more time with her.

-God provided financially through family and friends that supported her at the Dee’s Sheltering Tree Facebook group.

-Her hair loss was minimal until the very end.

And there were many smaller prayers answered. Yet not the one for healing. I asked her on occasion how she was doing with God. Was she angry at Him? I know I have had times of anger. But if she was she never showed it or voiced it to me.

There came a point when I didn’t want to pray out loud with her. How many times can a person take hearing someone voice a prayer when it seemed that God was not at work in their situation?

There is an acronym for faith that I always repeat to myself:

Forsaking-All-ITrust-Him

The Bible tells us it is God who gives and takes away (Job 1:21). It is He who holds our life and breath (Job 12:9-10). He knows the number of hairs on our head (Luke 12:7) and the length of our days (Psalm 139:15-16).

I continued to pray and walk by faith. My trusting Him meant accepting that God had a different plan. It was time for Denise to have complete healing in His arms. On January 7 that is exactly what God did.

And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” -Revelation 21:3-4

To not have these things anymore means they had to exist. We will suffer pain, grief, mourning and tears here but not there.

She battled cancer while I battled faith. We both found victory through trusting Him.

8 thoughts on “She Battled Cancer While I Battled Faith”

  1. Sorry for your loss. My mother passed away after a long battle with multiple myeloma for over two years. In December. We are blessed to have been able to be by our loved ones sides and to be with them through their courageous battles! My mom often said she felt God gave her cancer so she could see just how many people love her. We are all sad to not have days here with our loved ones on earth but we should all rejoice that we will have eternity with them one day! God bless you!

  2. When my time comes to go home I hope I have a friend like you who will pray over me and quote His Word. What a wonderful friend you must be.

  3. It seems that just as hard as it is to be believing for a friend’s healing, is believing that when her body is no longer alive in front of us, the friend is more alive than ever. A couple of years ago, a good friend of mine passed away in a local hospital. At the time she passed, another good friend that was a few miles away, heard the passing friend’s voice say..”I am alive, I am alive, I am alive.” Three times. The friend that heard the voice, assumed that our dear passing friend had finally been healed. What really had happened was our friend had passed from this earthly realm onto a spiritual realm. There she was finally at the Lord’s feet..and more alive than ever. It takes our faith to believe for miracles. It also takes our faith to believe that what God has told us is really true. ” I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live.” Prayers and blessing to all of Denise’s family and friends.

  4. Thank you for sharing your faith battle with us, Debs, a touching testimony of God’s faithfulness and a live surrendered to Him. May you enjoy His comfort as you comfort others. We miss you and Doug. Lots of love , will keep you in my prayers.

  5. I think that is a powerful testimony from a friend which speaks volumes about faith & Trust & Love, I also feel Denise would be so pleased.

  6. God is faithful, even when we struggle to be faithful…but He is pleased even with our struggle to be faithful! I praise the Lord that He is bigger and much more than we can even imagine or think! I thank God for Denise’s complete healing and peace from suffering! I pray the same for you and her family and other friends!

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